hey. so i'm so sorry for the lack of updates of this site, pretty much from the whole summer. it was summer & i was NEVER home. i should have told you guys that straight out instead of having you guys wait. well, school starts on thursday [my birthday. ugh] & the monday of the next week, things should be getting back to normal. i can't promise updates everyday, because i go to school, i have friends, i have a job, & i'm a junior so school is really important to me this year if i wanna get in a good college. i'll try my best to update.
comments & suscribtions will make the updates happen more. =) if i don't get any. look for maybe a update a week.
thanks <3
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oo1.
&& all I need right now is for you to wrap me up in your arms, look me in the eyes && tell me you won't ever give up. oo2..
Just wanna say that i miss having
you around -- The Ataris oo3.
You && I never had it easy baby. We had to work so hard && every time it feels like we’re going to make it. That’s when it all falls apart. But baby;; I’ll take my chances with you.
 oo4.
you spend 12 years of your life trying to learn how
to live but everytime you try to live you`re told that
you`re wrong then everyone you`ve grown to love is
taken away and shattered thats what they should
teach us in school . to say goodbye && to let go. "There is a great big world out there and it won't matter
if you were the most popular girl, the quarterback of the*
football team or the biggest nerd in school. Find out who
you are and try not to be afraid of it." -Never Been Kissed oo5.
and it's been awhile since i could look at
myself straight. and it's been awhile since
i said i'm sorry. and it's been awhile since
i've seen the way the candles light your
face. and it's been awhile but i can still
remember just the way you taste. oo6.
So;; How do you know you are what he really wants.
Or are you the replacement to something he can't have?
 oo7.
yea im the girl ; the one thats always lost ; the one with the fake smile ; the girl who seems so strong but daily continues to break ; that girl whose always there and seems to have no problems of her own ; the one who holds back tears , until shes off the phone ; that girl that is in love ; with a guy who doesnt even TRY to understand. oo8.
and tonight i'll wait up realll late
just to sit & talk to you..
i wish tonight wasn't soo hopeless
but i can't help m y s e l f.. oo9.
It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known him.
If he's had you smiling since day one don’t ever lose him.
 o10.
even though i've 'stopped loving you,'
every time someone mentions your name
my head turns right toward them.
it's like every time I hear it,
i think of all that we could have had,
and all that could have happened that didn't. o11.
Listen, i know i may screw up at times &
that i may hurt you just a little bit but please
know that i love you & as long as you keep
loving me.. i will NEVER let you down.. o12.
We're making out inside crashed cars
We're sleeping through all our memories
I used to waste my time dreaming of being
alive now I only waste it dreaming of you.
 o13.
he knew that he'd never have to say to me
that he was sorry. His hand against my face, trying
to wipe away my tears, said it all.. <3 o14.
Promise me. That's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you'll always remember me. Losing you was hard enough. But, I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. o15.
i guess that it's typical to cling to memories
you will never get back again and to sort through
old photographs of a summer long ago.. or
an old friend.. i used to know
 o16.
does he kiss your eyelids in the morning
when you start to raise your head?
and does he sing to you, incessantly,
from the space between your bed?
does he walk around all day at school,
with his feet inside your shoes?
looking down every few steps
to pretend he walks with you?
does he know that place below your neck
that's your favorite to be touched?
and does he cry through broken sentences like,
"i love you far too much"? o17.
&& you can come over,
we can watch a scary movie
and take stupid pictures,
fall asleep together on my couch,
because you are my everything
and all that i am, is yours. o18.
she thinks i can't see the smile that shes faking
and poses for pictures that are being taken
i loved you
gray sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
i'm not impressed, i want you back 
o19.
&& I still have your picture in a frame
hear your footsteps down the hall
I swear I hear your voice
it`s driving me insane. o20.
For the past hour
I`ve been sitting here
typing;backspacing;writing && erasing.
editing;revising; && scratching.
I just want you to know --
pouring your heart out isn`t very easy o21.
I'm so in love. I pull up my buddy list every 2 minutes just to make sure you're still on ;; even though i'm too afraid to IM you ;; i sit there in the chair hoping that you'll im me and realize that what you missed out on <33
 o22.
& for once i'm left speechless ; nothing to say.
I have no idea what to do. how can you just turn
away? I want so badly to grab your arm & pull
you into my kiss, but what would that fix? i don't
know what i did to deserve this.. <|3 o23.
The best kind of kiss is ;;
the kind when you have to stop
because you can't help but smile. o24.
& it just happened.
no discussion needed.
we just both knew that
very moment we wanted
to be together <3
 o25.
Wanna know something?? The time I was
with you was the happiest I`ve been in a long time.
That`s part of the reason it's so hard to get over you
& move on, cause you were such a significant part
of my life & the thought of losing you killed me.
Now, I feel like I'm never gona be happy again,
at least not as happy as I was with you. To tell you
the truth, I would give anything to get back
that time, even go through the hurt again... o26.
The bad parts are never shown in the photo album,
but its those bad parts that helps us get
from one happy photo to the next o27.
love ? it`s kind of complicated but
i`ll tell you this the second you`re
willing to make yourself miserable
to make someone else happy that's
love right there ______ <3 
o28.
Everytime I see you I say "Oh I’ve moved on"
Everytime I look at you I say "Yeh we're just friends"
But everytime you look at me and smile...
I end up saying "Wow its so hard to pretend"
o29.
if only he could understand how much shit he put me
t h r o u g h </3 o30.
It's so weird, you know? how we always
inevitably find ourselves wanting to run back
to the ones we used to love, for some reason
thinking it would work out differently the second
time around.. 
o31.
you want her, i need you. you like her, i love you.</33
o32.
same old story.
BOYmeetsGIRL
&& she falls much harder than him.
o33.
well I woke up to the sound of the phone
at two in the morning I didnt pick it up cause
I thought it was someone else ;;
then I got your voicemail && there
you were telling me you were callin me
just to say hello <33 
<3
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